Hey Jasmine,
Sorry I didn't see your post earlier. (Thanks blue
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The makers of Suboxone do have the patient assistance program that you can apply for but with that program you will have to wait until you don't have the insurance. (the program is for up to one year of medication.)
In the meantime, I will do some checking and see if I can find some other options for you.
I know your worried but please try and find a way to not dwell on it. The more you think about it right now the more you are going to feel anxiety and become overwhelmed.
Try and keep yourself busy, do something that you like to do whether it be taking long walks with your little one, reading or even a hot bath.
Too much worrying can cause you to crave that familiar high. There is always a way to work through a problem we just have to find it okay.
Don't tell yourself you won't be ready in 6 months or even a year. That time is not here yet and you don't know what your situation will be by then.
How is your life now compared to what it was when you were using? Never thought you would be where you are today did you? None of us did. We all though we would be stuck in the same old rut, but miracles do happen and you are one of those miracles.
You would be surprised and what you can do.
One thing to start thinking about is a small taper. The thought is scary. But what is 1mg? If you could lower your dose by even 1mg, it is a start.
I know before you said that you were having withdrawal at 16mg. But right now you are 8mg away from 16mg. That is a big jump. One month 24mg, the next month 23 mg.
If you start now, it could very well be that your provider could tell the powers that be if needed that you are tapering.
The decision is always supposed to be between the provider and the patient. Period.
I am trying to find the guidelines for your state. Give me a little bit of time and I will see what I can find okay.
Try and get some rest and peace. Think about a nice snowfall and the peace and quiet that comes along with it. When it does finally snow go out and teach your little one to make snow angels. He will have a blast.