Hi all,
It's been a long time since I have posted here. Just thought I would check back in and offer a bit of my experience.
I'm still on suboxone. My doctor had tapered me down to 4 mgs/day, from 16mgs/day. However, my back pain returned a few months ago and was so bad that could not function. So I was moved back up to 16mgs/day to help with the pain. It does actually help with pain though I think many of us associate pain relief with the euphoria we used to get from pain meds...and, of course, for those of us you have been on suboxone a while, there is no "buzz" associated with the medication. It takes a while to retrain your brain to recognize the difference between pain relief and getting high.
I've had a few lousy experiences over the past 18 months due to attempting to switch doctors to someone closer to where I live. This turned into a disaster where I had to cold turkey for 10 days and was on 16/mgs a day leading up to that. I've also had some insurance issues that one time made it impossible for me to get my script filled for over a week. These experiences do serve as a good reminder and something everyone on suboxone or anyone contemplating it should know....
Suboxone is a VERY strong drug. It is a life saver but just because you are not getting high from it does not mean that you are rid of physical dependency.
With all that said, I can tell you that in the last 20 months I have entirely reclaimed my life. I completed, what is for me, the most important album I've ever made and something I have been trying to accomplish for most of my life. I've had promotions at work and am in a very stable and healthy relationship with someone who knows all about my past. These things would not have been possible while riding the rollercoaster ride of a pill popping oxycodone addict.
Hope everyone is having happiness and success in their lives. Thank you for your continued support.
Best,
Boomer