Thank you Blue! It means a lot to hear you say that I'm doing great in my recovery.
I was hurt a little when Rae stopped replying and posting. I sent her a message about it. Her and I have been talking and I know she is busy, but I have a feeling she will be here a bit more often now.
You're right though I will always be grateful for everything that Rae taught me, the law of attraction and a few other things. Rae was the main reason why I posted my first post!
She had been posting for a couple weeks and I had been reading, keeping up with her story, praying for her and hoping she would be able to be strong and start we recovery. Even though I had already been on suboxone for a little while, I was shy and sort of afraid to post. But Rae and her strength and courage gave me the courage to introduce myself and post my story.
Although it took me about another week before I had the guts to post to Rae and tell her that I was reading her story and that I was proud of her.
I do believe that everything happens for a reason. And I believe that the bonds between all of us. Blue, Dee and Rae are stronger than some may think. People think that because we haven't met that we can't be close or even be good friends. Well I know from experience that they are wrong!
The bond between us grows stronger the more we post, talk to each other, and email each other. I feel like I can tell you ladies anything and I know what should stay private will stay private.
Rae may have gotten busy and left the forum for a while. But I know she hasn't forgotten any of us and never will. I like to believe that she reads to see how we are doing and just doesn't have time to post. I talked to her today and I know that she is doing ok, hanging in there.
Maybe support from this forum isn't the right kind of support that people need. Maybe some people need support face to face. And I support their decisions if that is what they choose.
I know that support from you ladies, my fiancé, my few close family member and my therapist is exactly what I need! And I love you all for being here! And I will be here as long as you need me to be!