I love what you shared nanamom. And I loved the quote on the bottom that "I will let yesterday end.....
but for me what I love about it, is it makes me see that: Unless I go back and clean up the unfinished business of yesterday, all my tomorrows may never change.
Im 54 male, been on tramadol for 3 yrs and vallium for 20 yrs, and I dont really know if I should accept this as who I am, because every time I try to go cold turkey or get with a detox specialist or even go into detox, all I want to do is die. I have no support system. And truth be told, Isd rather be alive and chew 10 tramadol pills each day then detox whether cold turkey or taper and have one bad day and go boom! Getting clean as far as Im concerned is my secondary problem...a symptom rather , of.....having something worth living for and reaching for. I say if you have no significant other or significant career in your life........being clean will never last and if it does what kind of quality of life will you have. I do not believe what certain "programs" preach, that if you get clean, life will take care of itself. I was in NA, meditation programs for addicts and many others for 18 months, and none made me feel alive. I need to feel alive first...then I can kick anything!!!!!!
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