Why I'm here

My friend Barbara,
When I met you way back when, we formed a bond that was to last a lifetime. I remember when the other forum closed, before this one was born, I was at a loss. I didn't know where to go, or where to turn. You assured me back then that all would be okay. Being the friend that you are, you gently led me here. Here I am at home. I am now content. I have so much to be thankful for. You, Deborah, and the others here. I hope that we continue to grow together. I see a future of many new people coming and searching for a place to settle.
I do brag about you to my friends, your name is a household name in my family. (Yes, they all know you, and love you as well) I am proud to call you friend.
Yours as always
Dee

Hi Miss Barbara!!
Are you hanging in there tonight girl? I have days like you were describing pretty frequently. Like I don't even feel like getting up & getting moving!! I often blame the weather, but I don't know that's entirely it. I do feel like I have "cabin fever" though, so maybe? I've been on low energy & forcing myself to get through even daily, normal chores. That's one thing that I still don't feel like I've gotten back, my energy. As I once heard Dee mention, I had tons of super energy & could get everything done while I was using. That's a feeling that I still miss because I haven't found how to get that energy back any other way. I hope that it's just a matter of time? Any suggestions?
I have to keep this short at the moment because my little ones are climbing all over me. Everybody wants to be held at one time!! I'm going to try to pop back on here in a little while. Hope to talk with you soon!
Love,
Bethy

Hi Bethy, honey I feel for you and don't know how you do it. It's not just the physical, it's the mental changes we must be able to handle with understanding and kindness. My energy comes back and I get a lot done, I pay for it the next day. I think the longer we stay straight, the stronger we become, but we still burn out and have to give ourselves a few days to regroup. The good thing is, we are able to do this. I'm looking forward to the time when I can get on an even keel and wake up in the same world every day. Just hang in there and it'll get better. I have to tell myself this a lot of times. Some things we don't have a choice, the babies need care just like my animals can't feed themselves. I have to do it. These are things have to be done. You are doing good, Beth. I'm proud of you. Your friend, Barbara

Hi Barbara, I hope its ok to tack on the end of someone elses post as I'm not exactly sure if I am posting in the right place or if I am posting too much. I feel such a connection here and I want to speak with people who send me posts. Someone will tell me if I'm doing something wrong here, won't they? Neil picked up a beautiful staffy that was on the freeway running in and out of the traffic last night. We looked after him overnight (our family of cats and dogs weren't very impressed) but actually found the owners this afternoon. It was a lovely reunion and a relief for the lovely dog. How is your family going? Are you feeling OK?

I'm still trying to work out if it is lack of energy on my part or just procrastination for me. I don't have any little kids to run around after now and for the first sixteen years or so that was my whole life apart from work. There is a really big hole there now and instead of getting off my butt and do something different I seem to be spending a lot of time hibernating - I love my bed and my sudoku.

I haven't even written in my journal yet. I got the book though. I feel like I'm whingeing here. Sorry. I love hearing about your lives and the fantastic things that you are all doing. I hope you have a happy monday.

Love Mez. X

Hi Barbara,

I just jumped on here at the noisy shopping centre and my agency called and I have to rush off to work.

I will try and jump back on tomorrow. I have a job interview tomorrow in the most beautiful spot around our shores. I hope I get it.

Could you give a shout out to everyone and tell them that I'm thinking good thoughts of you all.

I'll catch up soon.

Love Mez. XXX

Thank God! It looks like I really did find a home. There are animal lovers on here. I have Five dogs, 2 are rescues. I am also lacking in energy. It seems to come and go. I have a day were I will get a lot done then I just seem to burn out for acouple of days. I hope everybody has a great evening.

I got led here from a yahoo search, I remember being so scared an nervous even around you guys no one bit me jus one little nibble and it didnt hurt. Everyone helped me nad walked me through thanks all.

Good evening to everybody!!
Hopefully you all are staying warm tonight!! It's wicked cold here!! (Ohio) The actual temperature is 6 degrees, but with the wind chill, it feels like -25 degrees! There's about 8-10 inches of snow on the ground & surprisingly, it's still falling.. Usually, when its this cold outside, it doesn't seem like we get as much precipitation, but this time, its both!! The roads are slick around here tonight. It's a perfect night to be in front of the fireplace, on the computer.. Nice & warm inside here! Other than having to get out to the grocery store earlier this evening, I haven't really left the house much in the past few days.. Especially with the babies being sick, its not even worth it to go most places. Both of my sisters have young children & we like to get them together, but obviously not when any of them are sick. We all saw each other at Christmas time, but other than that, it was before xmas when we went to the ice capades all together. Somebody has continually had sick kids in between there & we haven't been able to pull it off. Then, with the weather the way it is. I'm just already for spring to be on its way!! Even just driving out to the grocery, after that accident last year, I hate driving on the ice so badly!! I'm ready for warm weather!!
Dee, are you also experiencing this storm over your way yet? Your probably laughing at me complaining about 8-10 inches when you have 6 feet!! We're just not used to this much around here anymore.. How have you been feeling? Does this cold weather bother your knee? Anything new going on? Nothing too exciting around here at all. I'm still just trying to get my family back to well again!! It seems like they've been sick forever, but you know what I mean.. Their sleep schedule is all messed up now because of waking up all night not feeling well, then falling asleep when they're usually playing in the daytime. I'm hoping that they're on the upswing though & we're getting close to being done?? I'm sitting here eating chocolate covered pretzels that I had to buy at the grocery & they're helping me scarf the bag down! Please let me hear how you are doing.
Ms. Barbara, I've been thinking of you girl! I hope that everything is going good for you today as you've been on my mind all day long!! I don't want to sound crazy, but this may sound just so. Yet, last September, well let me back up. My best girlfriend moved to Scotsdale, AZ & has been pregnant with her first child, due in November. She's had a hard time getting pregnant & they were doing the whole fertility deal & closely monitoring the pregnancy, etc. Well, last September, I had a very real dream about her & the baby, so the next day, I called her as she was still on my mind. There was no answer, so I left a voice mail. She returned the call several days later & told me that when I'd called, she'd been in the hospital because she went into labor prematurely. She'd given birth to her son the night before I called her. The same night that I'd had the dream.. Like I said, I may just sound nuts, but it was odd to me! Please let me know how eveything is going. Are the animals starting to eat okay again? Have they adjusted? Even though, I know that they're missing Mama!
It's time for me to have to close this up tonight. These babies are falling apart at my feet! Bedtime at this household!! (hopefully? I have my fingers crossed, at least, that they will sleep well tonight!)
I'd also wanted to say hello to everybody & wishing you a restful nights sleep!
Aspiring for another great day tomarrow!
Love Your Friend,
Beth

Beth,
It never fails that when you ask me about my weather and talk about the storm your having it ends up hitting here shortly.
I just looked outside and ya know what? It is snowing. My other half said it has been for about an hour and I didn't even know it. Last night it was so cold here, and tonight it is a flat even 0. I don't want to think about what the wind chill is.
I will be here off and on tomorrow, my hubby's niece is having her first baby and the doctor decided that he will induce her tomorrow. She isn't due until the end of the month but the baby is at 9lbs and she there is a threat of toxemia. I told her when she first found out about the baby that I would be there when she has it. Her mom is active in addiction but telling the family that has quit. She won't be at the hospital. She called today and said that she has " things to do". I've been there done that. We all have. But this is her daughter and she needs her mom. So I am angry. I can't change the way she is, but I can be there for my niece and the baby.
I will let all of you know how it goes, all of your prayers will be welcome.
Beth it is bedtime here at this home too, sleep with the angels. Stay warm and cuddle.
Yours
Dee

Hi Sweet Dee!
Thank God that you are there for your niece!! That is ridiculous that her own mother is not at the hospital.. Like you said, I know that there is nothing that anyone can do to change it, other than her, but she is missing out on time that can not be replaced!! (as we know all too well!) I'm sorry for both of them, actually. I hope that she comes to her senses here soon & doesn't miss out on these precious years with her grandbaby!! Your niece is very fortunate to have you there with her though. I'm sure that she appreciates having that type of relationship with you, especially since she doesn't seem to with her own mother.. It's kind of like that for me with my Dad & Matts' Dad. Not that my Dad & I don't love each other, it's still just strained & we don't see each other too often. Where Matt's Dad & I talk about who he's dating & how he's feeling, etc. I think that you are an angel, Dee & I'm sure that your niece is really needing you right about now! Like I said, thank God that you are with her!! As you know, childbirth is hard in any situation & she needs strength & help, not more stress!! Send her my love, as well! I remember just as she's feeling right now, its scary!! Today, her whole life is going to change forever!! But what a blessing! Please let me know how everything is going for her. Does she know if she's having a boy or a girl yet? Does she have names picked out? Is she married or will the father be around for them? I've volunteered for years at a local "Pregnancy Solutions Center" which deals the most with teen pregnancies & that can be so sad at times. Yet, obviously, there are girls that succeed, as well, & that's so encouraging to see! I will be keeping your niece in my prayers today & that precious baby!! (not implying that your niece is a teenager)
Yes, this weather around here has been wicked cold also!! Today it is 1 degree, but with the windchill, it feels like -20 to -25 degrees out there!! Brr!! I'm sure that if it was already that cold where you are, then this is probably on your way as well.. It does seem to hit here about a day before it gets to you, but I'm sure that you get it worse, being further East & way North!! Stay warm!!
Is everything else going well with you? How have you been feeling? Does this cold weather make it worse? Please let me hear how all is going & keep me posted regarding your niece, if you will.. Sending my prayers!!
Love,
Beth

Hi Sweet Dee!!
Congratulations!! As I mentioned in the other post, please keep me informed about how your niece & the baby are doing. They've been in my prayers & thoughts!! As you know, I love the babies!! (Thank goodness!) I'm so glad that your niece has you there with her, especially because of how her mother isn't there when she needs her the most. She's very lucky to have you around & I can certainly understand why you'd be the first call she made!! And your going to have a brand new little baby around to hold & love & kiss!! Congrats again girl!!
Stay warm & send my love!!
Your Friend,
Beth